On being myself

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Day 4/366 thoughts

In 2015, I struggled with finding a creative outlet to keep me sane while I worked my dreary day job. I tried joining an online art class and started a sketch-a-day project (among other creative projects) and, surprise surprise, I wasn’t able to stick to any of them.

So this year, I’ve decided to “try” and rekindle my high school love for writing. I used to write for the school newspaper (only features because I can’t for the life of me, write anything news related) and kept journal since the first grade so maybe MAYBE this’ll stick for the whole of 2016.

The rules are simple. Just keep piecing together words until I see something post-worthy. There is no limit to my posts nor is there a required amount of posts. Just. keep. creating.

Global Mala Project 2015

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Going to the Global Mala Project has been a mini tradition for me and my best friend, Angel. Our first year was back in 2013, months after we started learning yoga together back in Bacolod (see here). We were so excited and I made sure that we stuck to our agreed schedule of classes. This year, we decided to return to the Global Mala Project as volunteers. We got to meet and talk to other volunteers/yogis as well as attend classes FOR FREE (which by the way was the best part). Angela and I took the morning shift so by 1pm, we were already on our mats.

We attended a total of 3 classes and 1 talk. My favorite class would have to be Gateway to Freedom: Core Awakening Flow Yoga by Christi Christensen. Not only was her personality infectious but what she was teaching us was exactly what I needed. To be honest, when she was repeating over and over again that we should let go and love ourselves, I started to tear up. I had a hard time blinking back the tears; good thing that I was sweating so much so nobody could tell if they were actual tears or my sweat.

These photos are not arranged in order of events and are a mix of when I was volunteering and photos I took before and after classes begun. Excuse the selfies, most of those were Angela’s idea.

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I know I mentioned somewhere  that I haven’t had a proper workout since the start of my graduation collection. That’s roughly a year of being stressed/busy/lazy bum. I enrolled in a gym last August to help get myself back in shape. I have a personal trainer named Spike who bugs me almost everyday to work out so that’s really been helping me out. I have gained a total of 30 pounds since I stopped working out. So you can just imagine the struggle of taking classes one after another during Global Mala. Honestly, I had only taken two Flow classes (after x number of months) the week prior to GMP so my body was DEFINITELY not prepared for the physical strain.

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IMG_5964This year, I had a lot of time to reflect on my current situation and how bottled up I’ve become. I am honestly not the type to keep things to myself but during Christi’s class, I couldn’t help but feel lousy. It was like she knew what I was unconsciously going through and her energy just woke up something inside of me. I still can’t explain what exactly happened in that flow class but from it, I know that I have to cut myself some slack and relearn everything all over again.

So since GMP, I’ve slowly shifted to a Pescatarian diet, gone to yoga more than once this week and work out at least once a week. I’m trying to not harbor a lot of negativity during the day and I am slowly letting go of my worries and fears for the future. I try as much as possible to journal everyday too, a habit that I’ve let go off because of an insecurity.

I still have a long way to go but this has been the most peaceful my mind has been for months now. I’m just trying to go back to going with the flow.

BTS 5/10

Last week I got some awesome news that I was chosen to be part of a magazine feature! The article will feature 10 SoFA designers from different batches. Majority of those chosen are good friends of mine so the shoot was really more of a catch-up session. The only photos I have from the shoot are selfies (actually not even because they’re photos with friends) so I grabbed a couple from Nika for this post. There’s only five of us in the photos because we were separated into two batches. They’re planning to just photoshop the two groups together for the spread.

The shoot’s theme was obviously formal but hell no am I wearing a gown (also because I don’t have one and refuse to buy one) so I went with the blazer + slacks that I bought from Zara for the Preview ball instead. It was a hit because it really made me stand out. My inside shirt is actually from ukay in case you were wondering.

We’re not allowed to share what magazine we’ll be featured in but it’s coming out next month so I’ll be able to post about it soon.

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Kamameshi House

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I first heard about Kamameshi House from Val a couple of years back. He and his parents used to travel all the way to Manila from Quezon City just to eat there. It’s funny because I have lived in Taft for 6 years and I’ve never eaten there ’til recently. Good thing my trusty sidekick is always ready to try new restaurants even without consulting Google or Looloo for ratings.

It was a lot better than I expected. Since it was situated along Zobel Roxas, I didn’t think much of it except that it had that typical Japanese restaurant look for its exterior. Inside was a whole different story! The place could easily be mistaken for one of those fancy shmancy ones in Little Tokyo and the food was two thumbs up.

Ralf asked me if he could smoke after we ate and since I brought my Zenit (loaded with ISO 400 film!), I decided to take some photos of the place and of him smoking.

000015000013 000016 000017 000018000014So far, I’m really satisfied with my Zenit 122. Even if it feels like a million pounds in my hand bag, it definitely yields amazing results. I know I still have to practice with my night photography but hey, neon lights always makes everything so much more interesting.

Update: How My Summer Went

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(1) Finally got internship (YAY) after months and months and months of searching! I currently work for Tita Susie (Carlo’s mom) who owns a factory that manufactures clothes for buyers. She has a brand with her close friend (Tita Pam) called MiVestida and during bazaars, I transform to to “tindera” mode. It’s been fun so far but sadly, my internship will come to an end next week.

(2) My henna tattoo skills have definitely improved this past year! This summer, we (or me haha) offered a Henna tattoo service through Glacier in hopes to attract more customers. It was successful (for a while) but now we’re preparing for a Back-to-School sale so you guys can watch out for that.

(3) That’s a blurry photo of Idina Menzel when she came to Manila for her World Tour. I felt like crying when she came out and sang “Defying Gravity” as her opening number. All I kept thinking was “OH MY GOD SHE’S REAL AND SHE’S PERFECT”. I was hoping to see her son and his cute little afro but sadly, he did not make an appearance. I didn’t get to meet her or ask for an autograph so that’s still on the bucket list.

(4) I finally joined the Basic Acting class of Repertory Philippines. From April something to May 30, I practiced everyday from 6-9pm with those weirdos in the picture and I LOVED every minute of it. I learned so much and made alot of new friends. I can definitely say that acting, singing and dancing can be a path for me to take but is it the right one?

(5) Finally got to shoot with Erwin, Julls and Sofia! It’s going to be a lookbook for my graduation collection and I’m ecstatic with how the photos came out! So excited to share it with all of you so stay tuned for that!

(6) A teeny tiny pajama set next to 8-inch fabric scissors. That’s one of the costumes I made for Annie’s thesis. The first shoot will already start this friday! I still have a few more outfits to finish before then so gotta work non-stop starting tomorrow!

Those are the highlights of my Summer 2015. Hopefully I don’t fall behind with updating this blog again but now that I’m looking at the photo collage I made, I understand why bloggers result to this kind of presentation. Not to mention the fact that I made it B&W to add drama.

Let me know if I should do more of these in the future!

StyleBible.ph feature

This is a late post (because I forgot to post it when it first came out) but I was contacted early April for a feature in StyleBible.ph! I was really happy to do this especially since I got featured with my friends Sylvia, Bengt, and Mark. The feature was of Kiana Valenciano wearing selected SoFA graduates’ pieces. They actually switched up my first two looks but it turned out pretty okay. The photographs were done by Koji Arboleda (my dream photographer huhu) so this feature is extra special.

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Kiana from DecadeBros on Vimeo.

You can read the feature here.